It took a special kind of guts to be a fuck up as a woman, I thought. To say to hell with being the nice girl, the responsible one, the one who makes sure the man takes care of himself and eats properly and doesn’t take too many drugs. To be just as nihilistic and self-destructive as a man, knowing all along that you’ll get crucified for it, because somehow, the world will make everything your fault. He’ll be a martyr, and you’ll be a succubus. He’ll be a genius and you’ll be a groupie, He’ll be a hero, and you’ll be an ugly fat crack whore who deserves to die.
Courtney Love (via alchemy)

happy 420 yinz

You find yourself in a group of people standing next to a cliff.

Suddenly, someone pushes another person, sending them over the edge. Thankfully, the victim is able to hold on to the edge rather than fall to their death, but nobody makes a move to help them or stop the perpetrator. Everyone, including yourself, simply stands there watching.

Angry that they’ve been pushed, angry that nobody is helping them as they struggle not to fall, the victim screams, ‘Is anybody going to fucking help me??’

That gets everyone’s attention. ‘Why are you mad at me?’ one person asks. ‘I didn’t push you.’

'Nobody is going to want to help you with an attitude like that.'

'You're just as bad as him.'

Nobody makes a move to help.

The victim screams in frustration, their fingers slipping. ‘You’ve got to be fucking joking!’ they shout as they lose their grip.

'You catch more flies with honey than with vinegar.' You say as you walk away.

Welcome to the anti-sj/’real justice’ movement.

(via princenmonster)

some of the anti sj will step on that person’s fingers too because they think they’re being “too harsh”

(via isaacfloof)

live set on ultrawizardsword dot net. unscheduled, so i didn’t really get a chance to prepare. whoever can pinpoint when a cat jumped onto the master drum machine wins a high five from me.

gear used:
oberheim matrix 6
korg polysix
arturia microbrute
alesis hr-16 w/custom sample rom
roland tr-707
korg volca keys
alesis mmt-8
yamaha spx-90 ii
electro-harmonix memory boy

lgbt therapist problems

just realized my therapist called me hysterical for constantly thinking about the social justice issues that directly affect me and recommended more medication to deal w/ it. excuse me society is sick why doesn’t society have to take medication to deal w/ me?! My needs for medical care are not outrageous and my insisting on getting care and yelling when I am gatekept do not make me hysterical but as an angry trans woman I’m not supposed to exist or have feelings much less complain about my lot in life. I don’t know if I should keep seeing her. I don’t think any amount of medication would change my transsexualism believe you me they already tried to remove that when I was a teenager. This is the fifth therapist I have seen at the only LGBT practice in town and I am running out of options here they literally do not have the resources I need to be ok but I’m not supposed to be disturbed by this? ok then


that me
head exploded from endless dysphoria

can’t believe I survived that ssi physical
being called the wrong name and being forced to write the wrong gender on current documents is enough to make my head explode, every other doctors office has been accommodating when pressed but I shouldn’t expect such courtesy from social services I guess? cringe

two appointments today one tomorrow I can do this. ugh gatekeepers

two appointments today one tomorrow I can do this. ugh gatekeepers


When you grow up with stigma, people tell you a lot of well-meaning things that actually cause problems. When you face people treating you like you’re less of a person, someone will often say something like:

  • "You’ll prove them all wrong some day".
  • "It’s ok. You’ll…

pretty much all of doctors and social workers and the rest of my treatment team have said this and it always makes me feel really weird inside I don’t have a response for it this could be why

Buscrates: Drum programming, samples, Rhodes, Korg Volca Keys synthesizer.

DAD085/Sprang Tour

Tracklist found here: